Hearts For You

DBA 04 rocks.

2010-04-21T06:46:00.000-07:00

After all the orientation week and stuff, here I am again. I met many wonderful new people and at the same time, made friends. Haha, yeah, DBA 04 is the class and people in there rock.

Somehow today is Wednesday of the 1st week starting all the studies and i feel very weird already.
I really love the class, all that we've gone through during orientation week really made us bond, but something i dunno what makes me feel out of the place. ALL THE TIME!!

I guess i'll have to spend more time with the class to really get used to the class. Ohh God, please, take this feeling away from me. I do not desire it.

The modules we taking are scary. Fundamentals of Marketing, Information Technology, Economics, Principal of Accountancy, Business Communications, Discovering Business and Enterprise.

BlaZe883

Update for 8th April and 9th April.

2010-04-09T10:25:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, after work, there was a sing k session with Hock Lam people @ Chinatown, Party World Oriential KTV. We started to sing from 8:30 onwards all the way to 12:30. We sang many songs and got really high. Haha, super fun la.
Here are some photos of the event.

group photo 1 (from left: Xue Yao, Xinyi, Kai Ying, Auntie Piya, Erwin, Tina, Shireen, Me, David)

group photo 2

Xinyi, Erwin, Me.

As Tina and David had to leave early for BPP to put the beef, we had to leave on our own.
So in the end, the rest of the people went to eat supper while Shireen and I shared a cab back.
The fare was almost $20 as there was the 50% metered fare added on the original cost.

And thank you Tina boss, for treating us to KTV and all the things you have taught me.
I've enjoyed my days working for you, and i hope to work for you again maybe in future?

Finally school is going to start soon, imagine that, i'm so excited for school. Excited for what? you may ask, i'm excited to meet new friends, either in my class or others course also can. Haha, i missed almost all the camps so i must get to know more friends from other friends.

Then today, went to BBQ with cellgroup. We've had many great new friends. Haha, i've had loads of fun bbq with Samuel and Nat, hhah, so hilarious, especially when we were dancing and bbq-ing at the same time. Words just can't describe how high we were just now.

After the BBQ, on the way back home, i was reeking all of bbq smell, hah, in the bus. i think people must have thought that smell stunk. Haha, but its good, the strong smell repels insects.

Okaye, gotta go, sigh, forget to take photos during BBQ.

BlaZe883

What if you'd just had to wait.

2010-04-06T08:16:00.000-07:00

Hey peeps, back to blog again.
Before i do any talking, i'll just show pictures of me spotting a new hair cut.
Not very clear though

actually i wanted to cut something like the picture below.

But obviously, i'm modified it. :D

Yeah, so i think once i grow bored of this hairstyle, i will cut all the way short. Even the fringe.
I guess. What a crazy thought.

Been to Astons finally to eat. Ate Double Up Chicken (Teriyaki and Char Grilled)
With sides of baked potatoes and coleslaw.

If you are someone who can eat loads, haha, recommended to eat this one.

See ya.

BlaZe883

I LOL-ed at something today.

2010-03-30T07:57:00.000-07:00

LOL, today was quite fun, went to work in the morning, reached around 9:35 am, and then did the usual thing. Until when i went for a toilet break, i saw this guy wearing a t-shirt, saying, internet is for porn, i LOL-ed. hahaha, super funny. And then next funny thing, around 4 plus, there was this 2 school girls, super random, walk one step and pause continuing even in the shop, super funny, when i was serving the setting for the table, i couldn't stop laughing la, hahaha.

Recently i've been addicted to watching 一袋女王. Its very funny, the conversations they talk about are very enriching.

Okaye, i guess i'm going to go off le, aiya, and i'm gonna waste the voucher for KTV as its gonna expire already. sigh, byebye.

BlaZe883

Reviving..

2010-03-24T08:53:00.000-07:00

Haha, i've not really been updating ever since last year i guess, cause i thought no one was reading this blog of mine. Until recently i hear quite a number of people asking me to update. LOL. The reason i didn't update was also because i didn't know what to update about.

Anyway, this saturday would be the 3 on 3 basketball again, 2nd round. Kinda NOT very excited for it this time. I just dun know why. Hmmm, so an update of what i'm doing recently, eh, its like not much of going out cause either my friends are busy working or i'm not free cause i'm working, so life have been rather routine this couple of weeks. I'm simply just wasting time everyday.

OHH, and something interesting was, last week, when i was on my way to church, i was at the Tanah Merah Mrt Station, it was freaking long for the trains to get there cause someone jumped into the tracks and perished as the train knocked him heads on. I wonder if this trend is increasing?

Just because when the funeral is held, lots of people donate money? Is that their purpose, to give their family a better life with their death?

What do you think?

BlaZe883

2009-12-18T07:02:00.000-08:00

BlaZe883

Change of URL

2009-12-01T06:24:00.000-08:00

It's been quite a while since i've actually edited stuff on my blog, and now i've changed my skin and other links stuff, haha, recently, after the 'O's, i've been shopping quite a bit and i'll be posting photos showing my newest clothes. LOL, not showing off, but just for fun alright. yeah, so now, everyone else are like looking for jobs and i'm still slacking around having fun. HAHA, i dun know what i can do also. Its soooooooo boring and annoying to do jobs like admin, but then it's quite hard to get jobs like retail cause other people have already cliched the job earlier than i did. -_- So i dun know what to do, i'm still waiting for job opportunities. Will be looking around again.

BlaZe883

The ordeal is over

2009-11-11T07:35:00.000-08:00

I can't really believe it, its finally over, its just like taking a climb on a mountain so high and the fruits of overcoming the odds are so satisfying, i thank the Lord who has strengthened me. After tmr, it shall be time for fun, K-box, shopping spree, movies, whatever activities haha. Words can't describe my excitement now. Now, its time to start the search again. Haha, yeah, you know what i mean. As always. I'm more confident cause all i've been through has already shaped and molded my character. Yeap, since i haven't been posting much, i guess i'll make this a short one. :DD

Be back again sometime.

BlaZe883
The search goes on.

Day 1.

2009-09-30T03:33:00.000-07:00

Gotten back the prelim results le. Was quite shocked with my results at first.

Chinese- A2
E-math-A2
History/S.S- A2
A-math- C6
Combined Science- C5
F&N- C5

Lastly there is English where i haven gotten back yet.
Was quite pleased with the results but i'll work harder to get a L1B4 of 10.

Once again, i daydream of those events over and over again. It never seems to fade away because i'm just longing for it, day after day, the feeling is still intense. It ever occurred to me if all of that never happened. What will i become? It's now a huge question mark with no solutions. This isn't right, it isn't.

Singing as a form of drowning of sorrows.

BlaZe883

Forgetting everything.

2009-09-07T08:19:00.000-07:00

Its pointless going anywhere right now, i guess this is the end. I'm not having a great reaction to that, but feel a little more relieved than usual, i need to take a break from all the worldly affairs. This is taking too much of me. I must put my focus more on God and studies right now as i need them the most. Thankfully, i've been back and experienced the presence of "HIM" who made me feel excited. And i just need 'HIM' to show me where the one is.

GRR, i still cant post pictures yet.

BlaZe883

Busy days.

2009-08-30T07:54:00.001-07:00

I've been busy studying a lot for this few days and it really is refreshing, its intriguing how i can manage to start studying and keep the momentum. Surprisingly, i haven come to a halt or sort but i feel even more inspired to continue to keep the dream of getting superlative grades in place. Even so, I can feel myself wanting to learn more and to enhance my knowledge. I guess its influence, seeing all my friends gearing up and getting ready for the 'O' level fight just makes me want to strive even harder. Haha, anyway, tmr will be teachers day celebration, wonder how it would turn out, after that will go and study and then in the evening, pool. Its been a long time since i've played. Again i wonder how i will fare. LOL.

Damn, i cant post pictures, its irritating la, blogger.

Tuesday will be going out again, going shopping with friends.
I'm gonna go on a shopping spree again. Haha

BlaZe883

Waking up from my deep sleep

2009-08-19T06:42:00.000-07:00

Now i've realised i need to work to my fullest. I'm tired of losing and i wann to achieve grades to my best ability, i'll let this MT O level be a lesson learnt. It is sufficient enough to push me to my limits, because i cant stand losing. I am now determined and i know what i wann already for my results. So i'm going to achieve what i wann to stop playing around.

Last week, my friends celebrated my birthday for me. Ray, Hui, Joshua, Kenneth and Yee Seng surprised me with a cake after Ray lied to me, telling me that he alone would pick me up and then head to Suntec. I left the house, then walked to the staircase, to my surprise, i saw 5 of them standing on the stairs, with a cake. I was like, OMG, i think my blood pressure then rocketed skyhigh. We then returned to my house to eat the cake. After that, travelled to Suntec with mom's and aunt's car. Reached. Walked up to k-box and then sang our hearts out. Then Ray lied again. He told me the present would be given to me on Tuesday because they do not have enough funds to buy it yet. Then i was caught unaware. Returned from toilet and then they asked me to eat the snacks. Saw something black which doesnt look like it can be eaten, then i decided not to touch it. But i was puzzled, and continue to glance at it whenever i think something is wrong. Then everyone laughed like mad. They forced me to eat the snacks while continue to indulge in their inside jokes. I then pulled out the black band with curiousity, i found a necklace with a cross, i asked Ray, ehh, i got so holy meh? He laughed out loud.

After all the singing, we went for dinner at Subway with Ray, Hui, Yee Seng and Xinyi. Bernice and Jia Yi went off when we had dinner. Chatted a lot in Subway, mostly all -cant be told jokes- haha.

Really enjoyed myself.

BlaZe883
Dun undermine me
I can do it

Sick and tired.

2009-08-09T21:26:00.000-07:00

What a bloody nightmare i had last night, I dreamt of you just rejecting me and getting with another guy. What the heck, its totally crazy. I'm on the brink on cracking under stress, thank God that i'm still holding on cause he's there for me. I heard that dreams are the total opposite of reality, i dun know, i really hope so. Sigh, i'll just leave things to nature, let nature take its course.

BlaZe883

National Day.....

2009-08-09T08:58:00.000-07:00

Haha, today was darn fun, went out early in the morning around 11 with Ray to buy some clothes. Went to Bugis, to the Iluma shopping centre and Bugis Junction. Bought shirts from Recoil and Messy. After that, we went to meet Ray's friends, namely Reen, Jie Yi, Jason and lastly Alex. They are fun people, i throughly enjoyed going out today. Then we went to the Singapore Art Museum, browsed for a while, the exhibits were quite artistic to describe. After that, we went for body and face paint, erm, i'm sure its not that name but something like that luh. Lol, Alex had his whole face painted with the national flag, whoa, patriotic sia. I then had half of my face painted with the national flag. lol these are the pictures.

Me at home

Serious

The one wearing the elmo t-shirt is Alex and the one behind is Jason

Alex, me.

Overall, i enjoyed myself very much, meeting new friends and having so much fun, lol.

Since yesterday, i feel down and all, just because i saw.. Do i still stand a chance or not?
I dun know, but no matter what, i still need an answer. I'm feeling tired already, its like taking one step forward and two steps back. Sigh, i'm fatigued.

BlaZe883

Standing up from where i fell.

2009-08-06T07:40:00.000-07:00

Hi, today was normal. Nothing significant happened, yeahh, but just that the highlight is the A-math test, which totally caused me to sweat during the test. Now i know i've to continue to work harder and cover up the gap. Listening to what Mrs Quek said really reminded me of the timeline. She explained the MAR which is M for Motivation, ultimately, no one can motivate you but yourself. A for Ability, at this stage, where do you think you will stand if you took the 'O's now? Lastly, R for Role, as a student now, we not only must learn the knowledge from the textbooks but also we have to learn how to study. Its really interesting.

Yeah, so that's what learn for today, haha, anyway, tmr's Nicholas birthday.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY.
I guess not much people will see this anyway. :DDDD

BlaZe883

Perplexed, all the more i need you.

2009-08-01T09:21:00.000-07:00

Why is this happening, the world crashing down on me, why the distance? I wann to be closer but it isn't going my way. All the question marks popping up, i'm perplexed!!!.

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All those walls I didnt build properly are falling.

2009-07-30T05:31:00.000-07:00

Its such a bad day for me, all because of my previously made mistakes. I know i'm very immature in the past, made almost everyone pissed off. Now that i think back, i feel stupid, like i was in primary school. I seriously dun know how to handle friendship well because i was pretty much neglected by my friends in the past. Its something i cannot get over with, imagine going to school without friends, that was why last time in primary school i always wanted to escape school. Until today do i realize that the way i'm treating friends are wrong. Now i feel self-reproachful for all the things i took for granted, to those i've done wrong before, and reads this blog, pls forgive me.

Anyway, these are the pictures

BlaZe883
Atonement of sins

Now i'm much more at ease

2009-07-28T05:18:00.000-07:00

Hey, sorry for not really blogging, cause blogger had error that time. Haha, so glad that i'm finally getting a hand over my homework and studies again. I'm happy to say i'm looking forward to 'O' levels already. This few days have been weird, dun know why, but i just feel like that. Hmmm, i've recently bought 萧敬腾's new album, the songs in there are very nice. Grr, how come i cannot post photos? Damn.

Tmr is Hui Hui's birthday
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUI HUI.
Happy 16, enjoy your youth while it is limited, lol.

BlaZe883
I know what i want.

A feeling like this could only mean

2009-07-22T03:20:00.000-07:00

Daughtry - Gone

A Feeling Like This Could Only Mean
I'm Sinking.
Feeling Like This Could Only Mean
I'm Sinking.
Well, I'm Sinking.
Pull Me Up.

Every Time I See Your Clothes Scattered Out On The Floor,
I Say I Thought You Would Be Home.
You Said You Never Would Be Gone.
Every Time I See The Light Not Burning On The Porch,
I Say I Thought You Would Be Home.
You Said You Never Would Be Gone,
But You Are.
You Are.

Feeling Overwhelmed, I Take A Dive
To A Once Overfilled But Now Empty Place To Hide.
The Day You Turned On Me Is The Day I Died,
And I've Forgotten What It's Like,
And How It Feels To Be Alive.

Every Time I See Your Clothes Scattered Out On The Floor,
I Say I Thought You Would Be Home.
You Said You Never Would Be Gone.
Every Time I See The Light Not Burning On The Porch,
I Say I Thought You Would Be Home.
You Said You Never Would Be Gone.

Reach Up To The Sky.
When Nothing Seems To Go Right,
When Nothing Seems To Go Right For Me.

Every Time I See Your Clothes Scattered Out On The Floor.
I Say I Thought You Would Be Home.
You Said You Never Would Be Gone.
Everytime I See The Light Not Burning On The Porch,
I Say I Thought You Would Be Home.
You Never Would Be Gone.
I Thought You Would Be Home.
You Said You Never Would Be Gone,
But You Are.

BlaZe883

You are my brand of heroine.

2009-07-14T04:58:00.000-07:00

O.o, you might look at the title and make wild imaginations. Dun, its just some random title i thought of. I'm been feeling rather lousy nowadays, the stress coming from everywhere. Homework, "O" levels, expectations for myself, and many other other stuff. So resorted to indulging myself in games and forgetting to revise, i need a break. Otherwise, I'll break before the exams even arrive. Found myself unable to listen during lessons, cannot concentrate. The old me, gone, the one full of fire for studies, the one full of confidence, GONE!. Where you go? I'm looking into myself again to look for that me, cause this one on the cover has gone weak, shabbily, frail, worn out. Needs to be replaced.

At least i still have my friends by my side, my closest friends, not all those hypocrites. Thanks to Chee Chai who made me more assure that he'll be there. THANKS.

Need you like a drug.
You're my brand of heroine.
Okaye, i lied in the beginning when the title was random.

Ciaos

BlaZe883

A glimse of hope

2009-07-09T08:05:00.000-07:00

Hi, felt like blogging suddenly, so blogged.

First things first.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KENNETH COUSIN!!!
16 already, can watch NC16 show.
Good for you, i'll have to wait for another month before mine.

Today, school was quite boring and interesting at the same time.
Starting thought we had to stay back very very late for A-math, then teacher wasn't here, so we could go. Used the time to complete other subjects.

Tmr is friday, and its the weekends again, how fast it is.

So yeah, recently, have been in quite a low mood, because of something, but i think its blown over.

Its been a long long while since i wished for something so much

okaye great, still have to do homework. bye.

BlaZe883

Nearing the edge.

2009-07-08T05:06:00.001-07:00

Ello, been busy for a while and didn't blog. Hmmm, lets start of with today, received the CCA results. A2, then i saw the points of others, huge difference, surely there is an error. I went to ask a teacher and then he said he would look into it. I dun believe all the efforts put in is only worth an A2. Its just crap.
-----------------Forget the unhappy stuff---------------

These few days, been feeling up and down, when Chee Chai told me what i should do. Lol, what he said made sense but i think i dun have enough courage to do that. Haha, but i hope i can do that without causing awkwardness between.

Things happening this few days are really weird, and they make me think and reflect more.

Contradictions...

Picture time. How come other people cannot post pictures while i can?

Need you more than ever.

BlaZe883

A bundle of nerves

2009-07-02T05:51:00.000-07:00

Hey, today was "great" cause we had "O" level MT Oral examinations. I was pretty nervous in the beginning when we just entered the hall. Mdm Ho came along and talked to us which fully calms me down. Haha, well, i was expecting the conversation topic to be very difficult and indeed, it has been my downturn. I was stuttering and stammering and at the same time, thinking what to say. Unfortunately, i was unable to think of any ideas. Well, have to deal with it so anyhow made up something, and crapped all the way. The reading aloud was quite simple, with only 1 or 2 words i'm not very sure. To summarise, i think i can only score average marks or slightly above average marks.

I'm not feeling so great.
Need you.

BlaZe883

Love is like breathing.

2009-06-27T05:45:00.000-07:00

Love is like breathing, you need to inhale and exhale. Sometimes you must hold on to it, sometimes you must let it loose. It's also the same theory for flying a kite.
You can't hold your breath for too long, otherwise you'll be breathless instead of having loads of air in your diaphram. Similarly, you have to breath in to have enough air. In comparison, love, you'll have to give and take, not giving all the time, and not taking all the time.

(It came to my mind like yesterday and today. And I've been having much of such thoughts these days.)

Today, thought i was going to have a bad day, but something changed my day. Let me talk about the bad part first. In the morning, i turned on the tv, switched channel to MTV, then came a hissing sound, came from the tv, ignored it and continued to watch. Suddenly, screen went blank, exploding sounds emerged from the tv, i was shocked, my father turned off the tv. Then i joked with him.

Me: Dad, you purposely spoilt the tv right, so you can buy a new one.
Dad: Haha, i thought you made the tv spoilt, so you can get a new one.
Me and Dad: ~Laughs in unison~.

Lol, was darn comical la.

After that, played audition with someone for about an hour plus?, lol, i'm darn noob, cannot manage 100bpm lol. Laughing non stop.

Yesterday, went to watch Transformers, was marvelous, that movie. Packed with great action and story plot. NO SPOILERS this time..haha. Wann to know more, go watch it yourself, i spent quite a while queueing okaye.

Just cut my hair, pics

Looks weird.

Sorry, extra shower head behind.

My fav pic.

BlaZe883
Happy.

Glad to be on track

2009-06-22T08:38:00.000-07:00

Today, in the morning, went back to school to hand up and update the F&N stuff. After that, bussed to Kenneth's place and waited for uncle Ricky. He came around 10:30 and pick us up to his apartment in Sentosa. It was really cool, how i wished i could stay in such a beautiful house.

Pics

View from the living room to the balcony

Beach

Balcony

Beach 2

Went to gym with Kenneth at the private apartment. Worked out for around 45 minutes then went back to bathe then go Vivo for lunch, ate honey chicken rice at Thai Express, then went back to the apartment. After a short rest, we decided to swim. Swam for an hour or so, went up to bathe again.

After that, went back to Vivo again to watch Land of the Lost. Quite an interesting movie, with a very awesome review from GV. haha, would recommend you all to watch this one.

I'm so happy that i've finally got a solution.

BlaZe883

I miss you already

2009-06-16T01:59:00.000-07:00

HI, today went shopping with mom at Bugis. Went to Iluma's recoil and bought bermuda's. It was really cool when my mother actually agreed to buy 2 of them for me.

White checkered Bermuda's

Black Bermuda's

*Sorry if pics are not clear.

After that, went back to junction to shop. Went to browse the clothes in FreshBox Vintage, it's almost the same as those in FreshBox what. Then bought cake for dad downstairs at 717 trading. Mrt-ed home after that.

I dreamt of something amazing yesterday.
That i held your hand and led you to the dance floor,
as the music dies,
another soothing music came along,
you placed your hand over my shoulders,
while i place mine on your waist,
our other hand joined,
and we danced to the music all night long.
There was no one else there,
just you and me.

Now that i've told you, what will be your decision? :)

BlaZe883
I miss you already.

Dream On

2009-06-14T08:35:00.000-07:00

Today, went to Sentosa after tuition. The people who went are, Amanda, Alisa, Azlizah, Reshawn, Khoirul, Hui, Ray and Me. Entered Sentosa with Hui,Ray and me, walked into the Palawan beach. Walked along the beach trying to find the BVSS peeps but couldn't, then we walked aimlessly along the beach. The sun was shining really brightly so we were like squinting to look for them. After that, still cannot find them, so i decided to call, there they were, at the entrance. We joined them, and then they said they were going back to Vivo. asdfghjkl was our first reaction initially, but then the weather was seriously warm, so we decided to go back to Vivo. Reaching Vivo, everyone was hungry, so we headed straight to LJS for our so called dinner, i glanced at the time, 4+ only dinner?, i asked Ray. He say yeah. Then i was like Huh?, okaye lo. Ate and chatted for quite a while, we continued to walk around, then suddenly someone suggested we go play pool. I just followed, to Beauty World, booked table then played. I was not playing well, poor performance in total. Finished, bussed back and went home.

***Today, i was presented with so many chances but i didn't take even one, what a failure right, haha. Laugh at me for all you wann. I also can't believe how slow i am today. Couldn't think straight and quick. I wasted many chances, and for that i almost went crazy when Ray and Hui told me about it. Never will i sit back and do nth again.

Sorry for having no pics, forgot to take any :x. haha, next time.

BlaZe883
Slow mind

Totally an awesome day

2009-06-13T07:46:00.000-07:00

Last few days been feeling down, but now no more. haha, i'm not gonna be unhappy anymore. Officially moving on, and i'm happy to say, found another hope. Haha.

Today, rise and shine early in the morning, bathe and styled hair. Went to take bus with Francis, then reached JP at around 9:35. Met the rest, Kenneth, Ray and Hui then ate breakfast. After that, went to find someone, gave her the thing and walked with her around the mall, talked as we walked. I believe we almost covered the whole mall. I was ohh so darn ps la, haha, actually had many things to talk abt but i ps, so like didn't talk much in the beginning. After that, slowly calm down then talked more effectively. Haha. Which after, she needed to leave, walked her to the mrt.

Went back, slacked with the rest then watch the movie, darn bloody scary. Spoilers available tmr, haha, sorry, lazy to blog the long post now. & going to Sentosa tmr.

BlaZe883

Today, a day i've been expecting for a long time

2009-05-28T06:54:00.000-07:00

Today is finally the day of our handing over of duties to the sec 3's, yes , the POP ( passing out parade ). Since sec 1, my interest for NP has never died down because the fire have always burned in me, influenced by others. Since then, I've given my all to the corps, with an outstanding feat of a full attendance. LOL BHB sia. At sec 2, i've been appointed squad ic, i felt happy because my efforts have been recognised. After that, the promotion test and followed by other stuff, I've become one of the three people in the squad with the rank of Sergeant. At sec 3, Mrs Long, the previous OC left, and taking over is Mrs Chia, who didn't really know me then. Then we went through the arduous NCO courses, getting scoldings every week for our performance. Then after the NCO courses, we were ready to take on new roles, as NCO's. The results of the department heads were released and i was initially crestfallen when i wasn't head or deputy for the training department but only a member, after all i have done, i felt like ,man, this is unfair. I was on the edge of giving up all when i found imparting what I know to the juniors to be a form of joy, other than that, i found myself leaving the political part of NPCC, to only indulge myself in the loves of teaching the juniors. OMG, what am I talking?

Then came sec 4 year, Mrs Chia finally realized my worth (LOL haha) and sent me for the NPAP. Felt happy to be again acknowledged, i put in effort in trying to master the sophisticated flag drills. In the midst of it came another few good news, I was about to get BUC (Best Unit Cadet) and the SPF badge, it was exhalting for me as i felt glad not giving up.

So today, after all the milestones and achievements, we finally passed on to the younger, which means its time for us to move on, but I am absolutely sure, that i'll never give up these fond memories which has taught me many things.

So i'll like to take this time to thank several groups of people.

1st, to all TO's, HO's, CI's and seniors, you have been patient with us and your efforts attempting to make us an even more efficient lot would not be denied.

2nd, to all my peers and squad mates, thanks for being there with me for scoldings, punishments and happy times, sad times and whatnot.

3rd, to the sec 3's this year, good luck and i am proud to pass on to you, manage the unit well or i'll be back to haunt you. I love you guys!

4th, to NICHOLAS CHUA CHENG DA, without you being training head, i think i would be complacent and would not be able to dedicate myself more to teaching the juniors. Thanks for being motivating and sometimes overly cautious. You and I will have a long way to go being friends till we grow old.

5th, to Kristabel, thanks for being a good friend to me, I have enjoyed working with you and i have to admit, YOU ARE HIGHLY COMPETENT. lol. I hope we could continue to work together, maybe if there are chances in future.

6th, to NG HUI HUI & SERENE CHAN & RAY TEY & ^2FAM. You all have been the best pals i have in my secondary life, and also for ^2 FAM, i hope being together and to go out together will be the best times of our clique. Definitely, i hope that it'll last long.

ONCE A LEO, ALWAYS A LEO.
Dare to lead
HKSS NPCC

BlaZe883
loves NPCC to the core.

New Hairstyle

2009-05-10T23:15:00.000-07:00

Haha, just came back from a saloon with a new haircut. 1st time trying from this saloon, and the results is pretty good. I like my new hair. LOL. Today was a boring day, didn't go out, so i took the time to study for tmr's F&N. MYE's are going to end pretty soon so i have time to go out again, yay.. Who is interested to watch Angels and Demons on the 14th?.. Pls tell me soon.

BlaZe883

2009-05-10T09:10:00.000-07:00

Hey, haven been blogging lately cause it was the MYE's. Now that it's almost over, i'm back to blog. Tmr is holiday for us and i dun really know what to do for tmr. hmmm, nvm, i'll talk bout today, went for tuition in the morning then came back after that to eat lunch that my dad cooked, duck kuay teow. It's darn good. I often wondered why my dad doesn't open a store or something. Lol, but he isn't interested. After that, i went to play basketball with Nicholas and Francis, on the way there, i fell at the kerb of the carpark, darnn, it bled alot, and i mean alot. I still went on to play basketball in the end. Played pretty well but dragged by the injury so cannot run too much. Went home, bathed, and went out for mother's day dinner. Brought my grandmother and we had a fabulous meal at the Labrador Seafood. Came home, watched soccer, Man U vs Man City. 2-0. Amazing feat by Ronaldo and Tevez, although Tevez almost scored the third goal and accidentally knocked his head against the goalpost while trying to head the ball into the goal. Was quite comical when u see him rubbing his head after that. Lol.

Yeah and after that, here i am blogging and surfing the internet. Just listened to how Ray DJ-ed, whoa, i have to admit, it brings out a different version of Ray when he speaks like an European lol. It was quite interesting, so yeah, this is it, tmr would be a boring day i guess, for mugging and staring into space. Haha, also i apologize for no songs in the playlist, i dun know what happened but it suddenly show no songs. Darn, i changed it and the same problem exists.

OKaye, off to bed now, byebye//.

BlaZe883
When can i get u to go out with me?

Exam period..

2009-04-28T05:19:00.000-07:00

Exams have arrived and wreaked havoc in our lifes (nah, not so much..) Yeah, its the exam period again and the first paper was as usual, Chinese. Paper one was quite easy as the questions were quite familiar, paper two was quite difficult and everyone said it was a killer. Paper three, i was already day-dreaming and not really listening seriously. Overall, MT paper was okaye. Next is English paper one, Speech was exceptionally long, even longer than my essay which i was shocked, cause i have little experience of writing speeches, but suddenly, i've got inspiration so i wrote a freaking long speech. History paper, Darn difficult SBQs took most of my time up. SEQs were much more easier.

Have been studying at the library again like last year, but without a few people and a few addition of a few other people. LOL, what am i talking, i dun make any sense. Anyway, my days recently are not so stressed up anymore and more carefree.

Pic when going for study groups at home.

BlaZe883
Been thinking of someone loads.
**** ** * ***** *** ********** ** ***

No Voice!!!

2009-04-14T04:57:00.000-07:00

Yo, people. I'm kinda tired and having a headache right now, but i'm still blogging okaye, lol, this is lame. Okaye, today was quite fine, my day went quite smoothly. After school, went to help out at the speech day rehearsal, checked uniforms and drilled. First rehearsal started, i left to find Francis out at 258, was bored so played chess lol darn random. Finished at 5:17 then ran back and continue to drill. After that rehearsal ended and we went to the canteen to do some sort of a debrief cum giving out of badges thingy. Then dismissed.

This few days were sepulchral, i couldn't believe that i was putting in so much thought into it. I ruminated and cogitated , finally realizing how i actually feel. At first, i was at a state of denial, slowly, i lost to the overwhelming power of it. It was just too great of me to overcome. But i dun think i can do anything much at this point of time. I seriously need someone to help me with this. Perhaps someone with prior experience and or erudition of such cases. This is the first time i considered everything into detail, in the past, i just ran ahead without looking for alternate routes, this time, i've brightened up, learnt from my past mistakes and stood up with my head up. I'm certain, this time i'm a winner, no longer a failure. I'll have faith and believe that God will give me what i want, but i must be sure i can stand ground in what i actually want in my heart. I'll most probably bury this matter surreptitiously or definitely in clandestine.

Some recent photos.

BlaZe883
I love my new bag...

Quiz!!

2009-04-11T22:33:00.000-07:00

10 "Are yous "
- Single : yes
- Happy : quite
- Bored : bored of being alone, lol
- Fair : depends
- Italian : nah
- Intelligent : maybe
-Honest : quite
- Nice : of course
- Irish : nah
- Asian : yesh

10 facts
-Full Name : Kelvin Lee Jun Loong
-Nickname : BlaZe, Vin.
-Birthplace :
-Hair colour : black
-Natural hair style : idk how to explain
Eye colour : dark brown
-Birthday :
-Mood : fatigued and bored
- Favourite Colour : black,white,blue,gold,silver.
- one place you'd like to visit : US?

10 things about my love life
-Have you ever been in love - no
-Do you believe in love at first sight - quite
-Do you currently have a crush - nope
-Have you ever been hurt emotionally - yeah
-Have you ever broken someone's heart - idk
-Have you ever had your heart broken -yeah
-Have you ever liked someone without telling them -yes
-Are you afraid of commitment - nope
Who was the last person you hugged - cell group people? forgotten
Who was the last person you said ily to - Someone.

10 This Or Thats
-Love or lost - Love
-Hard liquor or beer -Hard liquor
-Cat or dog - Dog
-A few best friends or alot of regular friends -Both i also wann.
-Creamy or crunchy - both please :D
-Pencil or pen - what's the diff?
-Wild night out or romantic night out - wild night out with friends :D
-Money or happiness - Happiness
-Night or Day - both?
-IM or phone - phone

10 'HaveYouEvers'
-Been caught sneaking out - nope
-Seen a polar bear - yeah
-Done something you regret - yes
Bungee jumped - no, not yet
-Ate food that fell on the floor - err, that's kinda gross
-Finish entire jawbreaker - what in the world is that?
Been caught naked - nope
Wanted an ex gf/bf back - yes
Cried because you lost a pet - no
Wanted to disappear - yes

10 preferences in a partner.
-Eyes or smile - Eyes
-Light or dark hair - anything
-Kisses or hugs - both, haha
-Shorter or taller - shorter.160+-
-Intelligent or attraction - i want both
-Topman or Zara - same same.
-Funny or serious - both at difference time, more of funny (:
-Older or Younger - younger
-Outgoing or quiet - outgoing
-Sweet or Bad - sweet..

10 'HaveYous'
-performed in front of a large crowd -yes
-ever talked on the phone for longer than an hour - yes
-ever walked on hands - ps, i'm not that crazy
-ever been to a rock concert - no
-ever been in a cheerleading team - no
ever been in a dance team - no
ever been in a sports team - yes
-ever been in a drama play/production - i dun know if u call that a drama.
-ever owned a BMW/Mercedes Benz/Escalade/Hummer/Bently - no driving license!! :D
-ever been in a rap video - no

10 'Lasts'
-last phone call you made - Home.
-Last person you hugged - forgotten
-last person you hung out with - ^2 FAM
-last time you worked - last year?
-last person you talked to - my mom!
-last person you IM'd - Ray
-last person you texted - Ray
-last person you went to a movie with - ^2 FAM
-last person/thing you missed - someone
-last website visited -blogger

10 Do this ppl!
-Ray
-Jenibelle
-Bear
-Sherlyn
-Yilin
-Serene
-Fenfang
-Felicia
-Zong Huan
-Hui Hui
lol

BlaZe883

Handsome Suit!!

2009-04-11T06:52:00.000-07:00

Whoa, today was a great day. Haha, first, went to church after so long, it's really refreshing to go there again. ohh yeah, and i saw Felicia, i was awed how much she has changed, ahaha that was after the service anyway. During service, there was the drama which really touched me, I couldn't believe the drama team and crew put up such a good performance. After service, bussed to West Mall to watch handsome suit with Ray, Yang and Francis.

The show was awesome, it shows a guy that is ugly and fat who desire to become handsome and then there is this girl who is really kawaii comes along to work for him in the restaurant, he confesses to the girl but then suddenly the girl asks why does he like her, he answered because u are beautiful, the girl then ran off saying she was disappointed, then the guy feels he himself is too ugly for her. Feeling dejected, another guy came along and saw this fat and ugly guy and recommended the handsome suit to him, after wearing it, the ugly guy becomes damn handsome and all the girls go to him, (but there was a condition that he cannot touch hot water). LOL was funny la, having enjoyed the suit and getting to become a model, he gets famous and gets into an intimate relationship with another top model which is darn hot...After that the suit got damaged when sabotaged by another jealous model. The main character had to choose between being himself or being the handsome guy of the suit and the changes would be default which means cannot change back. In the end he chose to become the handsome guy, he and Raika (the hot model) attended a fashion show and suddenly he got news that a good friend of his got into a accident. he could not tear open the suit so he cut himself with a penknife and he turned back into the fat ugly guy. After all that, he chose to tell that good friend that he enjoys being with her because she makes him laugh which he feels is a happy life. Suddenly, the girl strips off a suit and it was the kawaii girl, and then they got together. LOL, plot was quite predictable laa.

What I disliked of the movie was that after the final suit changes cannot be made anymore but suddenly by cutting himself with the penknife he turns back, crap.

What I liked of the movie was that the story depicts human nature where ugly people yearn to be handsome or pretty, but dun noe that their personality is the most important.

After the movie, Ray asked me if this kind of suit existed, would i wann to put it on and become handsome? I told him, i wouldn't put it on. Because 1st, I'm contented with what God gave me, 2nd, I dun like to become someone that is not me at all, 3rd, Even if i am not very handsome or what but i'm sure i can find someone that loves me for who i am with God's blessing of course.

SO RAY, What is your answer?

Random pic

BlaZe883
Handsome Suit!!!
A MUST WATCH.

Day of Revelation

2009-03-29T07:16:00.000-07:00

Today, woke up around 10:30, breakfast and went for tuition, was doing the last year common test that was given to us. Finished tuition and went straight home, had lunch, my father cooked something like Laksa, lol. Yummy. Played PS2 with my cousin until evening, then went for dinner. The place was filled with ********. Damn high la, ahaha, my cousin also. Shopped at NTUC and bought some stuff. Wanted to cut my hair but didn't cause the saloon was too packed and i never cut my hair there before. Think of many things today. Tired to look anymore, why not sit down and wait. No more stuggles, more time to calm down and think properly. But when will my turn come?

Yesterday, early in the morning, went to play basketball with Francis, Nicholas, Jonathan. The rest, Ray, Hui, Sherlyn, Fen Fang and Jenibelle was just chatting and playing badminton. Whoa, Jonathan is VERY good in basketball, his defence damn tight, pei fu...He also give me pointers on my mistakes and stuff, then suddenly i enlightened le, played very well, scored loads. haha was amazed of how a few mistakes can deny me from scoring. Later, ate at the hawkers, then homed and bathed, bussed to interchange, met up with Hui, Ray and Sherlyn and also Nicholas. MRT-ED to Orchard, ate KFC, was planning to watch a movie de, then dun noe what happen we MRT-ED back to West Mall. After that, again dun noe what happen, then never watch movie le, ate at Pasta Mania then bussed home.

Conclusion: Spent the whole day just travelling around in the MRT.

BlaZe883
When will the "one" arrive.?

2009-03-18T06:22:00.000-07:00

Today, woke up at 7, woke up by my father knocking everything in the way. All the commotion woke me up eventually. Went to wash up and stuff, changed and left home to the bus-stop at 7:40 like that. Saw 187 coming and i took it to Ray's house the bus-stop. Waited, 188 came and we reached CCK at 8:27. Hui came awhile later and we took 172 to HTA. Saw Rene then drawed number one. So happy lo. Bussed back to Lot One, went to the food court to eat, then after that went right down to buy bubble tea, then bussed back again to school.

Yesterday, went for the Cha Yang Bei Chinese Chess Competition. Was nervous cause it was my first time participating in such competitions. Won the first 2 matches with ease then lost 2 rounds cause of some mistakes along the match. Won the 4th match and Drawed the rest of the other matches. Conclusion is mistakes caused my failure.

16th March, went to celebrate Rene's birthday.Woke up and went to Mac to meet Ray,Sherlyn and Fen Fang to do the sketchbook for Rene. I went for tuition at 11 while Ray went home to bath. After tuition, i went to meet them at the bus-stop to bus to JP. We were early and the rest haven break camp yet so we went to arcade to play. Then went to KFC to celebrate Rene's birthday hmm, presented our gifts to her (got gan dong not) lol. Then Philo and Bel went to buy a cake for her. After the celebration, we decided not to watch a movie cause all the movies were either too boring or either have been watched before. Later, MRT-ed to IMM. Hanged around for a while at the 2nd floor at the fish spa there while Rene,Hui and Fen Fang enjoyed the spa. We went Ajisen for dinner and after that went home.

Pics Time.

BlaZe883

Inter-Unit NPCC Basketball Competition

2009-03-09T05:37:00.000-07:00

Saturday was the NPCC inter-unit basketball competition. I was feeling nervous as this was the first time i am participating in such events. Met Ray in the morning, ate and went to the bus stop to wait for Chee Chai and Nicholas. Bus-ed to Hua Yi, saw no one there, uhh, we shocked, is it the wrong date?. Ohh, then continued to wait, Sherlyn, Hui and Fen came shortly after but was not allowed to come in as Sherlyn and Fen are wearing slippers, the security guard damn inflexible la. Aiya, dun care him. The competition started at bout 9 ( not sure cause we didn't look at e time).

First round: Hong Kah vs New Town
The first match started out rocky and bumpy as all of us were nervous. We lost our composure and lost our strategy, until Nicholas shouted remain composure, i felt whoa, okaye, felt like waking up already. AHAHA, then played my role as centre. Tapping the shots and catching the rebounds and scoring under the post. The first match ended with us winning 21:4.

Second Round: Hong Kah vs Chung Cheng
This match, the three of us, was expecting to be playing a tough match as they brought their coach along. Wooo, then we played quite well also, this match ended with 15:12. This match was quite funny as Ray roared in the face of the opponent. Haha.

Third Round: Hong Kah vs Chai Chee
This match was expected to be a tough match too as the last time there was a 3 on 3 basketball competition for NPCC, they got 1st for shootout as there was rain the last time. We started out not very well, Nicholas was defended very tightly, but they forgot the existence of Chee Chai and me. Lol, i scored 3 in a row to make the score 3:0 then we started scoring as usual, the number 23 guy was very good in 3 pointers he shot bout 2 of them. We were quite consistant and the final score was 14:10 i think, not very sure for this round.

Forth Round: Hong Kah vs Bukit View
This match was quite a breeze but i got injured quite a fair bit for this round, i was hit on the head by the opponents arm, he was quite big built and his hands were chunky so it came down hard. The final score was 21:9

Fifth Round: Hong Kah vs Hua Yi
This round was the hardest and toughest of all the matches, with exhaustion overcoming us, we were feeling fatigued and tired over the last few matches. The opposition centre was more experienced than me and had more stamina and power than me, i was very tired and i didn't manage to defend the centre from attacking. He took advantage of it and scored a lot of points using this loophole of mine. The first half was good but the second round was really biased, the ref was from Hua Yi and ruled us foul for many times even though we didn't foul. I got knocked down by the centre many times but it was not considered a foul. In the end, we won by a mere 2 points.

After that, the official told us we had to face Hua Yi one more time, we seriously cannot take it le, we fairly won the match and we have to give them another chance, what is this logic man, it is stupid, we debated with the organiser and managed to get back our rights. We were 1st, and all of us jumped for joy. But unfortunately, the trophy was chipped and the OC insisted that they get another for us.

BlaZe883

Tagged to do a quiz

2009-03-06T06:00:00.000-08:00

1. Besides your lips, where is the favorite spot to get kissed?
Cheeks, lol.

2. How did you feel when you wake up this morning?
Yay, it's friday already, got NPAP.

3. Who was the last person you took a photo with?
Ray, Ming Yang.

4. Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
No, definitely not.

5. Would you ever donate blood?
Yes, maybe in future.

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was the opposite sex?
Duh, of course.

7. Do you want someone dead?
No, i'm not that mean.

8. What does your last text message say?
You sure hor?

9. What are you thinking right now?
Which phone should i change and about tmr's basketball match.

10. Do you wish someone to be with you right now?
Yes, but i doubt i'll find someone to be with me in the near future. ( If there is, i'm happy lol random.)

11. What was the time that you went to bed last night?
11:30pm.

12. Where did you buy the T-shirt you are wearing now?
Err, idk my uncle bought it, i think in his own factory (UNDER ARMOUR)

13. Is someone on your mind right now?
Yes.

14. Who was the last person who texted you?
Ray

10 people tagged to do this quiz:
1) Ray
2) Sherlyn
3) Hui Hui
4) Serene
5) Rebecca Mei
6) Yilin
7) Kristabel
8) Zong Huan
9) Fen Fang
10) Felicia

15. Who is 2 having a relationship with?
None? Idk.

16. Is 3 a male or female?
Female, one of my best friends.

17. If 7 and 10 gets tgt ,would it be a good thing?
LOL, no good, first they are both female, second, they do not know each other, third, one of them is attached.

18. What is 1 studying abt?
Now or what?

19. When was the last time you had a chat with them?
Ray: An hour ago.
Sherlyn: An hour ago.
Hui: An hour ago.
Serene: This morning.
Rebecca: Now.
Yilin: Yesterday.
Kristabel: This morning.
Zong Huan: LOL, yesterday at the bowling alley.
Fen Fang: An hour ago.
Felicia: Weeks back.

20. Is 4 single?
Yes, i'm not really sure.

21. Say something about number 2?
She's always laughing.

22. What do you think about 3 & 6 being tgt?
Both are girls?.

23. Describe 9?
Cute.

24. What will you do if 6 n 7 fight?
I would be dumbfounded.

25. Do you like 8?
I'm not gay.

I'm done. I seem to have avoided all questions lol, but all the numbers of the people are randomly picked and placed there, no form of manipulation of mine.

LALA.
YAY yesterday OMEGA got first, once and so many years being last. Happy. After Sports day,went to play bowling wiith ^2 FAM people, fun but my highest for yesterday only 139. Uhh.

BlaZe883
Signing off.

^2 FAM 1st Outing.

2009-02-28T23:22:00.000-08:00

Hey, yesterday was ^2 FAM outing. First, Ray, Hui, Fen Fang, Sherlyn, Yilin and of course me, we met up at the MRT station at JE. We went to city hall, found Yang waiting for us. Hungry, so went to food republic to eat. It was damn expensive la, one plate of chicken rice and braised egg cost $6.30 and then the sour mango juice cost $3.50. After the lunch, we went to walk around, Serene then went to Mango to buy a shirt. Took neos at the arcade, the neo machine was too small for all of us, so we squeezed quite a fair bit to take the photo.

This is the photo.

Other photos.

Zilian in toilet siol, me,Ray and Yang.

After that, we went to West Bowl and bowled.
I played so lousily, my skills all gone, blah, last time average got 130++now only 80-100.
Rust le, uhh.

Finshed bowling, Serene, Fen Fang and Yang left, the 5 of us then went for dinner at Sumo house at central.

Dinner...
Sent Yilin and Hui home, i and Ray chatted on the bus back home.

Yesterday was damn fun luh, ^2 FAM rocks, wooo.

LALA, pic time. Sorry ah, first time posting pics,hope it turn out good.

During bowling.

The girls.

My bowling stance.

Whoa, Ray bowling, Shuai sia!!like expert.

Sherlyn bowling, she claims she dun know how to bowl, like real.

HAHA,
That's all for today.

^2 FAM is loved
BlaZe883

Happy life...

2009-02-21T06:50:00.000-08:00

Haha, had a good day yesterday and today. Okaye, i'll start with today.

Today, went to play basketball in the morning with Nicholas, Ray and Francis. Starting just play random matches until a few people came then we decided to play match with them. LOL, we completely trashed them, but Nic says let water so we played slack anyhow shoot and dun play serious. After a while, Nic suddenly play serious. I asked him why he say the people said that we were lousy, i was like uhh, they say we lousy? okaye then we show them what we have. Again trashed them upside down.Forget about them, then after that in the afternoon, we go watch movie. The people who go are Ray, me , Xinyi, Kenneth, Weili and Xinyi's friend. ( Sorry, i didn't catch your name.) We watched Valkyrie, was quite nice for us as we understand cause we study HISTORY. Bought a shirt, went for dinner then went home.

Yesterday, whoa, boring routine like every friday, after that NPAP, was really fun fun fun. LOL, cause there is good news which we are not supposed to spread around. Haha, let Ray be main cause can see he really wanted it. Hey Ray, u better do well or i'll replace u. Haha. Then after NPAP, dinner with Hui and Rene. Chatted for quite a while, went home. Msned then formed our new clique. ^2 Fam, weird name huh, cause all of us got nickname of like Bel Bel or Yang Yang or Ray Ray. Something like that, hence the name.

BlaZe883

A little to not over u...

2009-02-17T04:11:00.000-08:00

Haha, I'm okaye already, I'm getting over it already. Hmmm, i feel so tired now, fatigued, because there is no motivation for me to carry on anymore, if i continue to persist, it will only make things awkward for everyone, so i've decided to stop and give up now.

Today was boring the same as usual, only for F&N class, the intern teachers were the ones teaching today. Class ended at about 5, walked out of school looking listless, feeling so tired. Walked to 258 and to look see look see for a moment. Went back then bathe and headed to grandma place. Now still at grandma place, going off soon.

BlaZe883

Leap Of Faith

2009-02-13T04:56:00.000-08:00

11/02/2009
This was the day i finally took a step of faith, i finally dared to send the text i have been planning for the few days...I was so worried, i even prayed to my lord, to accede to my request.

12/02/2009
I waited and waited for the answer, but i didn't get any for this day. Went to NPCC, trying to cover my sinking feeling already but to no avail, i still felt very down. My teaching style for yesterday was crappy, as to say my feelings were so fcuked up. I didn't wann to feel alone so i hanged out around everyone.

13/02/2009
Heard that a decision have been made, i was really sad to hear that it was the bad ending of my thoughts, feeling very crapped, i continued to try to look normal but when it was Physics lesson, i couldn't take it anymore, it was the last straw, i broke out (it's been ages since i broke out like that)....i couldn't control myself at all.
Thanks to the encouragement from my friends, i managed to then get a hold on myself.

I really hope u'll continue to consider and hopefully u'll accept me.
haha
i'm gonna hang tough.

BlaZe883

2009-02-08T06:34:00.001-08:00

Enough is enough - you feel frustrated and rejected. You are fighting back and the going is tough. It would be just wonderful if you could be left in peace.

Rejection is what you fear the most and it is this fear that makes you unapproachable. You are looking for acknowledgement and above all looking for people who can appreciate you for who and what you are.

You are confined and trapped in a distressing or uncomfortable situation and seeking some way out. Whatever you seem to do to resolve the problem hasn't worked out. Fortunately you are able to gain some aspect of relief from someone close to you.

Recently everything seems to have gone wrong and so you are experiencing considerable stress and anxiety due to mental conflict. A continuous case of 'Should I?' or 'Shouldn't I?'. At this particular moment in time you feel as if you have reached the end of your tether and it seems impossible to ever rectify the situation and so you have decided, perhaps quite unrealistically, to postpone making any further decisions. Disappointment and unfulfilled hopes have given rise to despondency. This conflict between hope and necessity is creating considerable pressure. Instead of resolving this by facing up to making the essential decision, you are likely to immerse yourself in the pursuit of trivialities as an escape route.

The tensions induced by trying to cope with conditions which are beyond your capabilities, or your reserves of strength, have led to considerable anxiety and a sense of personal inadequacy. Your inability to take control of the situation causes you to over-react in stubborn defiance blaming everyone but yourself for your own failures.

BlaZe883

6th Feb 2009

2009-02-06T06:35:00.000-08:00

Today, normal school day but is the start of the NPCC annual parade. At 1:30, got chinese test, i rushed my way through the test, after finishing the test, went to NP room, then change into half u. Arrived at HTA then kanna sabo, the sir ask for an incharge, no one go then i volunteered, i too used to the NCO style of commanding then moved around when commanding, so the sir say i not supposed to move. Haiz, marched them to the grand stand, dun noe what the person trying to say, again hai me dun noe what to do. Nvm, forget it. Never gonna do I.c again, flag bearer was fun but tiring for the arms. Other than that nothing much la. haha.

Sadded liaos...

BlaZe883

3rd Feb 2009

2009-02-03T02:46:00.000-08:00

Today was a short day, until 1:30 then dismiss le. First lesson was S.S, we did the SBQ's for the whole lesson. After that was Chem, got back our results for test. I got 17/25, but i felt was rather bad, still can be improved de. Then was F&N, was taught the digestive system thing for the whole lesson. After recess was e-math, got back quiz result, 10/10 full marks, was really glad la, thought i had some careless mistakes. Then was the CNY concert, was quite bored cause the performance wasn't very impressive as it was kinda last min preparation.

School ended, Nicholas, Ray and I went to play basketball, then Francis and Yonghao joined in. We played for quite a while then bout 4 plus, we stopped. Chatted with Ray for bout an hour or so then went home.

Feeling unsure right now.

BlaZe883

2nd Feb 2009

2009-02-02T01:20:00.000-08:00

Today, reached school bout 7:10 like that, saw Ray and his newly cut hair. I thought, ure fringe isn't that bad man, anyways i'm not gonna laugh at u. I know the feeling of getting my fringe cut off okaye. So chit chat with him for a while then went to assemble le. Wow, we recited the pledge for three times... Class started as usual...........

Until physics period, the teacher who relief our class came in because our teacher was not here. He was umm really a little...strict. He scolded some of my classmates then still threatened to bring them to the discipline teacher downstairs. LOL, just for something minor...

Anyways, i wash my hands off this matter.

Haha this thursday going to the dry shoot with the sec 3's at the Jurong HQ site.

BlaZe883

Flag Day

2009-01-31T02:23:00.000-08:00

Hi, today went to school for flag day, actually was posted to Queentown Shopping Centre there de but instead went to Clementi with Ray to collect donations. Started out really rocky when not everyone wanted to donate or used the stickers as a shield to not donate. After a while when Ray and Yang went to buy bubble tea, the donations came in. It was an encouragement for me, so i continued to get donations. Hmmm, then when they came back with the drinks, we started to slack for a while. After that we headed off to another place, we decided to stop outside the NTUC supermarket and ask for donations, that was the place where most of the donations came in. LOL, actually it was rather boring, but in the process, i realised that there are still kind hearted people in Singapore. There was an uncle who gave me $10 at once, i was dumbfounded, i thought, whoa he could part with his money to help people who he didn't know, to give them the chance to study. So i was glad to say that there are generous and kind hearted people in Singapore.

BlaZe883

2009-01-26T08:51:00.000-08:00

As you know, i'm single and available.
So this post shall be titled: MY EXPECTATIONS FOR MY GIRLFRIEND.
I know this is random, but oh well, I'M BORED. :D
So, here it goes.

1) Height preferably around 165cm.
2) Preferably long hair.
3) Have a sweet smile. :D
4) Eyes that electrifies me.
5) MUST be cheerful and try not to be emotional often.
6) Has a own unique style.
7) Sporty or not is okay.
8) Weight doesn't really matter (hopefully not underweight or overweight. LOL)
9) Care for me but not too over? Sounds difficult
10) Loves me for who i am.

Thats all.

BlaZe883

2009-01-26T08:37:00.000-08:00

Hey peeps! It's been so long since i last updated, huh ?
I'm very happy because I got my BUC, best unit cadet and I'm now a SSGT. [:
I wanna thank my teachers for giving me this opportunity to become a BUC and i'm very grateful to them.
I'm very busy with my schoolwork and totally stressed dude.
I just wanna wish all my friends : HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! :D
Ahhh, wish you all collect lots of angpows ! [:
lala ...

BlaZe883

Quiz...

2008-10-29T02:33:00.000-07:00

1. The 1st person who tag/pass you is?
Richard/Ray.

2. Your relationship with him/her?
Best friends.

3. Your five impression of him/her?
Extrovert, singer, rocker, music crazy, LZX crazy.

4.The most memorable thing he/she had done for you?
Encourage me...

5. The most memorable thing he/she has said to you?
You are my best friend.

6. If he/she become your lover, you will?
NEVER..I'm not gay. LOL.
I'm sure Richard/Ray is interested in girls.

7. If he/she became your lover, he/she has to improve on?
Nth, cause i'm not gay. :)

8. If he/she became your enemy, you will?
Have a good talk with him, understand the problem between us and resolve it.

9. If he/she became your enemy, the reason will be?
I offended him.

10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her is?
Umm, perhaps be there when he's feeling down.

11. Your overall impression of him/her is?
God bless me with you, such a wonderful friend.

12. How you think people around you will feel about you?
Umm, i don't know.

13. The characters you love of yourself are?
Serious, Funny, Mature.

14. On the contrary, the characters you hate yourself are?
Being too serious (hard to get high), Self-centred, Stubborn.

15. The most ideal person you want to be is?
Me, i don't despise of what God and my parents gave me.

16. For people who care and like you, say something to them.
Thank you, i love you too.

17. Pass this quiz to 10 person that you wish to know how they feel about you.
1) Richard/Ray
2) Felicia
3) Wendolyn
4) Francis
5) Eldad
6) Kristabel
7) Xinyi
8) Hui Hui
9) Pei Shan
10) Nathaniel

18. Who is no. 6 having a relationship with?
No one?..I don't know.

19. Is no. 9 a male or female?
Pei Shan..a female.

20. If no. 7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
Nathaniel and Xinyi, erms seriously i don't think they fit each other.

21. What is no. 2 studying about?
Felicia, NTSS

22. When was the last time you had a chat?
22/10/2008

23. What kind of music band does no. 8 like?
Hui Hui.. I don't know, varies.

24. Does no. 1 have any siblings?
Richard/Ray..no he's the only child, like me.

25. Would you woo no. 3?
Yes...

26. How about no. 7?
No, she's my cousin.

27. Is no. 4 single?
Yes, maybe, i don't know his private life.

28. What is the surname of no. 5?
Eldad Tan Lian Sheng.

29. What's the hobby of no. 10?
Singing? He's from choir.

30. Does no. 5 and 9 get along with each other?
Yes, of course, they are from the same cell group and also connect group.

31. What is no.2 studying at?
New Town Secondary School.

32. Talk something casual about no. 1.
A singer.

33. Where does no. 9 live at?
Jurong West?.. Am not sure.(agaration)

34. What colour does no. 4 like?
Francis...Orange and Purple.

35. Are no.5 and 1 best friends?
Nope, normal friends.. they just got to know each other.

36. Does no. 1 have any pets?
No, Richard/Ray does not have any pets.

37. Is no. 7 the sexiest person in the world?
I am not one who can judge/define sexiness.

38. What is no. 6 doing now?
Msn.

That's all for today...

BlaZe883

Recent Life...LOL

2008-10-15T03:35:00.000-07:00

Weets, exams ended and gotten back my results. It was rather sucky i guess. Hmmm, this time my rank in class is a sure to drop. hmm
EOY results

Eng:62
CL:66
E-Math:70
A-Math:46
Science ( Combined Physics & Chemistry ):71
F & N:50
Combined Humanities ( History & Social Studies ):50

Very lousy scores...

Okaye, update on recent life

13/10/08
Went to play badminton after school with connect group people. Lian Sheng, Francis, Pei Shan and Nathaniel at Jurong East Sports Complex. Played without score, was really fun, enjoyed myself very much.Wow kudos,Pei Shan in really very good in badminton. Hope to go out more with connect group more often.

14/10/08
Nth significant things that happened to post bout yesterday.

Tmr will be the promotion test for the sec 1 & 2's. Good luck all. Hehe, i'll be the drill invigilator haha will be very strict on u guys. Nah, jk jk dun get stressed out.

BlaZe883
Promo tmr

English Paper 2

2008-10-02T00:40:00.000-07:00

Today, paper 2 of eng, super sians. Have to report at 9.30 at class. Hmmm, then i woke up at 7++ then eat breakfast. I slept again, super tired..slept till 9 then took a bath then go school.
Reached school, paper starts. Paper quite easy, so i took my time to slowly do. It's like 5-10 mins for 1 question. haha, then summary, done twice cause really got nth to do. I edit and edit again, then suddenly there's a pungent smell in the class, and it came from the left side of the class where all the girls sit. Lucky i got runny nose, didn't smell it. haha

After the paper, went to NP room to pack some stuff with Ray and Kristabel. Finished packing then we talked lots of stuff in the room.

Fast forward
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After that went to 258 play chess again...lol.
Play until sian
Came home with Francis
Then played games
Then prayed for connect group
LOL, tmr is math paper 2 and chemistry paper.
Go mugg now

BlaZe883
"Mugging hard"
I'll still do my best

Eng paper 1 and History

2008-09-29T06:03:00.000-07:00

Today Eng paper 1 and History paper. First was eng paper. I wrote the essay question 1. The question is...Write about an occasion where u begin to see a person in a new light. Lol, idk what to write so anyhow random fabricate story so...haha. I wrote about Ray being the character in my story. Cannot think of any names le, so anyhow random. Am so sorry Ray, dun get offended. LOL

History paper.
I flipped the paper, found it quite easy lol but in the end didn't have time to finish the essay at all. Sad, wann to write the last sentence then the invigilator collect the paper le. For history, i wrote question 2 which is on Russia. I wrote 2a without breaking sweat but when come to 2b whoa rushed my way through. Cannot think of anything then anyhow write. Sadded, dk if this time can do well. Hmmm

After exam, went home bathe then prepare to go to library de time, i remembered putting my ring and necklace together but then forget to bring ring. Sianned, i'm so scatterbrain, bring necklace forget bring ring, bring ring forget bring necklace. Haiz, tmr must make it a point to bring both.

Reached interchange at 3++, met Ray, walked and talked on the way to the library. Went straight up to 4th floor. All the rest haven reach yet. So we just talk talk. Bout 4 like that, Xinyi and Felicia came. Then 4.16 like that , Francis came.
Today didn't study much was quite bored in the library. Read my S.S but cannot concentrate.
At bout 5++, I hungry le then we go eat KFC, after eating everyone of us just random joke around. Hmm, then Weili came, all of us went arcade play, i played Daytona, omg, i forgot all the expert course drift turning with the gear. All my past hard work gone down to the drain.Then play DDR, lousy la, hmm that machine old version, i like the new version (DDR Supernova 2) with newer songs.

After which go home. Felicia and Ray took Mrt, I and Francis took bus, Xinyi and Weili went home with Uncle Syh.
Yeah, that's all

BlaZe883
I'm definitely not gay.lol

Revision

2008-09-28T04:09:00.000-07:00

Whoa, today went to tuition and asked Mr Wee lots of questions, to clear up my doubts for some questions. Next week got e-math exam le. Hmmm, after that reached home at 1 plus like that and eat lunch. Woo delicious cause its cooked by my father. Then started revision for History til now. Am very BORED now. Nth to do.

hopefully tmr the 2 papers will be easy for me. God bless.

Tried to resolve a conflict between 2 of my friends yesterday. Hmm, realised the importance of building a strong relationship so that the devil can never infiltrate and make trouble.

Going out for dinner now. Ciaos

BlaZe883
given up
moving on

Chinese Paper

2008-09-26T03:06:00.000-07:00

Today was the start of the EOY's. MT paper 1 & 2. Paper 1 was quite okaye, i chose the question 1 which is an informal letter to a friend about how the financial crisis affected my family or sort, that one i anyhow fabricate the story and i felt it was quite fluent, and was really quite convincing, i finished part a at 9 sharp, then continued to do part b, which is essay. I wrote question 5, the question is what are ure views of the 2 16 year old twins that stopped studying and gave up O levels for their singing career. I saw the question and was shocked, it was BY 2, i chose that and wrote it quite fast too, i wrote that as it was a question that i can explore more into rather than the rest that will deduct marks if i went too far off.I finished the paper 1 at 10.05, just 5 mins before collection of paper.

After recess, paper 2, i browsed through the paper and i felt was quite okaye, but when i started to attempt the questions, there are many similar answers that i felt confused.Anw, i just do it based on my instincts and finished just before i had to hand up the paper. LOL,i think i would most probably get a b for my mt.

Rushed to 258, play chinese chess til now..lol sometimes i wonder if i could get a life rather than spending the whole day playing chess. LOL, sadded that tmr cannot go church.(PO)

BlaZe883
I wanna go church
Wanna see her soon
Even if i cannot be with her..
Give up or not?
I still dun wann to answer that...

EOY...

2008-09-25T03:21:00.000-07:00

Sadded, long time no post so i'm posting now..it's EOY's tmr, with the first paper: MT. Hmmm, anyways good luck to everyone having exams now...
My mood: Anxious yet Exhilarated

About my recent life.
Yesterday went to library after school to study with Ray , Xinyi , Felicia , Joshua , Francis and Ting Ting. We were very serious at the start but in the end still ended up chatting and laughing lol.After the study session, we went for dinner at JEC Kopitiam with all the peeps. As usual, Francis ate a lot. We were eating and then suddenly Joshua cracked a joke that made Xinyi, Francis, Ray and Ting Ting laugh like madddd. Felicia and i were stunned, is it that funny lol.. but after all those crap jokes, i still managed to control myself to not laugh.

Song i listening to: 我爱的人 .
It's a super sad song by Chen Xiao Chun
lyrics are
我知道故事不会太曲折
我总会遇见一个什么人
陪我过没有了她的人生
成家立业之类的等等
她做了她觉得对的选择
我只好祝福她真的对了
爱不到我最想要爱的人
谁还能要我怎样呢
我爱的人不是我的爱人
她心里每一寸都属于另一个人
她真幸福幸福得真残忍
让我又爱又恨她的爱怎么那么深
我爱的人她已有了爱人
从他们的眼神说明了我不可能
每当听见她或他说「我们」
就像听见爱情永恒的嘲笑声
她做了她觉得对的选择
我只好祝福她真的对了
爱不到我最想要爱的人
谁还能要我怎样呢
我爱的人不是我的爱人
她心里每一寸都属于另一个人
她真幸福幸福得真残忍
让我又爱又恨她的爱怎么那么深
我爱的人她已有了爱人
从他们的眼神说明了我不可能
每当听见她或他说「我们」
就像听见爱情永恒的嘲笑声
每当听见她或他说「我们」
就像听见爱情永恒的嘲笑声.
Am S.I.O.L now
btw S.I.O.L means Singing it out loud.

BlaZe883
我爱的人她已有了爱人.
Give up or not?
Wo bu xiang hui da...

Singapore Song Challenge

2008-08-06T04:23:00.000-07:00

As Richard and I joined the Singapore Song Challenge, we were rather anxious even in the morning. We've been waiting for this for weeks and it finally arrived. We decided to sing 最近 by 李聖傑. After school, we both went to the toilet to style our hair.Realized that my hair was not really well done,then got Azli to help me style( thanks for helping me, u did a very good job) After that, the event started and our number was lucky number 7. After a couple of bands and singles, it was our turn. I was feeling butterflies in my stomach and very nervous. We sat down on the mini stage, which no other group of performers did. The music started and i was freaking out but i saw all my friends rooting for me and i retained my courage. I sang the first verse very badly because i was nervous. I did not catch the "feel" then it became very mono.As Richard sang, i felt encouraged and began to sing fluently.Until the chorus which i feel is the best part of our song, was the climax, everyone cheered so loud that Richard and I couldn't hear the music and we went off beat. We finished the song quite well.Ya, this is all, i am thaankful for those who supported us.

This is the song lyrics
你最近不说话
怎么了为什么
是不是有什么事让你不快乐
听说你最近很孤单
有点乱有点慌
可是我却不能够在你的身旁
你想要的我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路
爱我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路
这一次我们都能很幸福

BlaZe883
Thank God i didn't sing too badly
Might be able to sing in the National Day Celebrations too.

Been busy...been busy

2008-07-15T06:40:00.000-07:00

Hi, back to blogging again but nowadays dun really have the time to blog. Too much homework to do already. Today was rather usual, like normal...our class were joking always, even when having a test during Physics lesson.
The other lessons was boring...

After school at 3.50 like tat, Nicholas, Chee Chai, Zhen Feng, Zhen Wei, Tee Yong, Ou Nan, Wei Kian and I went to play basketball. Wow, long time never play got rather rusty liaos haha..but the match was rather funny because we were practically running all over the court...it was like diaos

Fast forward

After tat, went to find her but she wasn't there..hiaz hard to even see her during the weekdays..
never mind God will bless me if i continue praying and with my persistance...the lord will guide me along...Random*lols.

I miss her like siao...maybe i'll get a photo from her someday

I think tat's all

BlaZe883
Want to see her so badly
Waiting for the right oppotunity

Update.........

2008-04-21T07:27:00.000-07:00

Long long time since i last blogged...sry too busy to do so ya so pls understand...really have too many things to do nowdays.Like homework...revision and stuff.Ya so my schedule is really tightly packed...ok as i explained..am really busy so time really passes very quickly and got nth more to think bout except studies and stuff...

Last sat was speech day...sec 2 NPCC cadets was supposed to be in the parade and ya....their drills were really like ****, i felt tat last year was even better.Although not very good...at least i can see some people with potential in the squad.But still...they still put in effort so gd job anyways.

I am still currently very confused bout my feelings...MAY GOD LEAD ME THROUGH THIS...haiz never been so unsure of my feelings before.Maybe cause i got hurt before and dare not try again,perhaps tats the reason...

M still mugging now...got A-math test tmr.
GTG now

BlaZe883//Illusium
Still very much confused of my feelings
How bout sending someone to comfort me
and take away my troubles...
and to also accompany me
to the ends of the worlds

Watched Jumper

2008-02-23T03:36:00.000-08:00

Today...early morning went to Jp with my cousin.Reached there at bout 9:40.Play DDR and Drum Mania in the arcade all the way from morning to afternoon.Waiting for 2 o'clock,when Nicholas comes then go watch Jumper.2 o'clock came and went but there was no sign of him.He was late again but never held it against him...cause he is always like tat.He ask me to go West Mall watch...took mrt there then buy tickets at the ticket booth for the movie Jumper.Went one floor down to eat lunch at Kopitiam.4 o'clock...we went in to the cinema found our sits and waited for the show to start.At 5:30...show ended, was quite interesting though...quite a nice show...recommend this show to u guys...

Nice movie
Still filled with uncertainties
BlaZe883

Shopping...

2008-02-03T05:59:00.000-08:00

Morning woke up at 9 plus then after tat...eat breakfast then go tuition as usual...then went to paragon to shop with my cousins and my aunt.Went to find suitable shoes for my cousin...i help her find and the other 2 cousins sit there wait...ahaha they sat for quite a long while...finally found a perfect one tat fit her.

After tat went to eat dinner liao lo...time pass very fast.We went to Nihon Mura to eat our dinner.Happy but afraid tat tat will put lots of calories in me...have to work harder to burn them...

Tat's all i wanna say
Nth more
Shop whole day
Haven Buy anything yet
BlaZe883

Went to the arcade today

2008-01-19T07:25:00.000-08:00

Today...in the morning played basketball with Nicholas and Chee Chai.After tat i went to Jp to meet my cousin in the arcade to play.We spent our time there play DDR and Drum mania.Still not rusty yet..ahaha...then while playing DDR,i was seen by Shi Hui and friends...they walked up to me then laughed at me...dun noe for wat reason...they just laughed...forget abt tat then after a while saw Tee Yong.

After arcade went to grandma's hse to play mahjong......wa today whole day play relieve stress.
There's nth much left to say
I guess tat's all
Haha

BlaZe883
Full of uncertainties

School has been a lil stressful

2008-01-15T05:19:00.000-08:00

Hi guys...it's been a long time since i last posted again haha sry cause i has many things to do...have no time to relax...trying to manage my time better b'cos now i find tat i dun really have time to do anything else than homework...etc...tat caused me quite a lil pressure...at first i thought i could not cope but seeing my primary school friends...Chee Chai and Nicholas being able to cope as they have come up from N.A to Exp...it also kinda feel more less stressed...with them i feel happy b'cos they really cheer me up b'cos both of them are experts at joking and making people laugh...

And i've been having tat feeling again...tat kind of wanting to be loved feeling again...for no apparent reason tat feeling came out of nowhere... i've have tat feeling towards a girl...arggg forget it...
Tat's all i want to say

BlaZe883
Tat feeling came to me again
WHY? &
Is she the one for me?
Full of uncertainties

Rather busy this days

2007-12-09T17:36:00.000-08:00

I haven post for quite a while already...and i apologize for tat.Bad things have been happening to my family this days,like my mother haven healed after so long since her surgery...another is tat my house...i dun noe some idiot or wat wrote words outside my door and they super glued the keyhole of my gate for no reason...we called the police and made a report and they classified it as a case of mischief...well i dun quite believe it ..haha but just to leave it to the police lo...

Hey...got to go now see ya

BlaZe883

I will be going to Hong Kong

2007-11-03T04:26:00.000-07:00

HI...erms guys i will be going to Hong Kong approximately 11 hours from now.So pls dun call but sms me kays take care u guys...maybe will buy some souvenirs for u guys if i have enough money haha...

BlaZe883
Luvs Her
Will miss her and my friends

Yesterday's SANA Course

2007-11-01T17:21:00.000-07:00

Wooo...hi peps...yesterday's SANA course sure was boring.We started with a lot of crap.They kinda introduced the kind of drugs and harmful effects taken in the long run...I was dreamy then...wasn't really paying attention to the instructor at all...After the lecture 1...finally went for our lunch...i thought the food would be nice...but instead it sucked...We had curry chicken,cabbage and long bean egg...the curry was definitely horrible,i never tasted such horrible tasting curry.We finished our lunch and proceeded into the training room again

Yada Yada Yada...we finished lecture 2 and the role play.The role play put us in a spot cause we aren't very familiar with our group mates.All of them are from other schools.My group really didn't have any ideas at first and we kinda piled up our ideas together...we just managed to make up a short skit and perform on the so called stage...

After all those...we started playing games...we played tug-of-war...i thought my group was going to win because we had more boys then the other group...never have i expect...we lost...only Richard and I was doing our best to win...the rest were slacking...i felt my palms were burning already while pulling half-way...it was a bad feeling cause we lost to a group where there are more girls then boys

BlaZe883
Luvs Her

Soccer til leg pain

2007-10-28T07:09:00.000-07:00

Hi...again haha sry for not blogging for a few days?...hmm today went to play soccer with my cousins...had fun...although rusty cause long time never play liaozzz...I just love to be the goal keeper...i gives me a thrill to dive and block the ball from entering the goal...arhh boring nvm talk something else...

Yay...4 days ago on 24th October...among us 5 corporals,3 of us passed the sergeant test...but sry for those who did not pass...try harder next time.I, Kristabel and Amani passed the test to become sergeant.Now at least i won't feel so awkward cause lesser girls...haha tat time corporal have 4 girls and i am the only boy...buck up the other guys...hope u guys promote faster lo...nth much to write abt these days...BYE BYE

Sergeant BlaZe883
Luvs her

Absent from sch today

2007-10-23T04:16:00.000-07:00

Haloosss...sry i was not in sch today cause i was feeling sick in the morning...had my medicine and was feeling much better after tat...yeah although i was absent,i still went to sch anyway to attend the np overseas trip meeting...in the end...i found out tat wat we paid was quite expensive for the trip cause we going on budget airlines...we had to pay $630 after deducting the sch paid $80 for each of us...then deducting the rest by edusave...if still not enough have to pay cash...i had to pay $30 cause my edusave not enough...never mind...but FORTUNATELY,Mrs Long didn't make us sleep in a hotel room with someone we dun noe very well...she said tat she would put us with our friends...happy only...whole class roared (yay)...we gonna leave on the 4th of November at 6.40 and reach here at 7th of November at 11.45 (i think)

Still stuck at the same spot...not advancing anymore...hardly talk anymore...how i wish tat i can talk to her more these days...really miss her and am beginning to think if she regretted loving me...hahas maybe i think to much...i read on the newspaper and saw my horoscope...it tells me to have patience to let tat someone important think abt it haha...Just want to let her noe i do not regret it...and i will never give up unless she tells me she doesn't love me anymore...if tat happens...i will then give up...and maybe cry my heart out...oppps no way cause my heart has shattered once already...will never be a whole again...haha but i realllllliiiii wish this will never happen...

BlaZe883
Luvs her
Pretty pls,dun ever let this happen

EOY results...

2007-10-18T17:14:00.000-07:00

Woo...i got back my results erms...yesterday, i mean the finalized results erms i got 6B's an A and a C...Average only...cannot even par with the people in 2A ahaha...never mind la...as long as i did my best it's ok...

English:63
Math:68
Chinese:64
Science:60
Art:63
History:62
Literature:70
D&T:54 (lousy marks pull the rest down)

BlaZe883
Luvs Her

Help Anyone???

2007-10-11T01:16:00.000-07:00

Hmmmms...can anyone help me.I really have a serious problem here.Can someone teach me how to start a conversation cause i really have a hard time communicating with my deardear...It runs in my blood...my family,all of them are not really versatile in starting a conversation...I have this problem also...need help urgently...can someone help me?

Today,err had to go to school for the last minute streaming talk which took only 20 minutes which was not wat i expected...It was not even a talk at all...we were just given some consent forms and then we could go home...(u call this a talk?) Haizzz, after tat proceeded to com lab 3 for the npcc overseas trip ( Hong Kong ) meeting.I was put in a group with people i dun quite know...haiiz...wanted to go to other groups.When we did the group work...the members in my group did not help at all,they left everything to me and another sec 2 cadet of my group to do everything. JUST COULDN'T BELIEVE IT.Seniors and dun do anything to help at all...this is ridiculous...

BlaZe883
Luvs Her
Help me anyone

A...bored bored day

2007-10-09T07:12:00.000-07:00

Today...woke up at 7...normally holiday people sleep til 10 or 11 or even later...but i always wake up very early...too used to waking up early...hahas.Went to play basketball with my primary school friends...i did not rust after so long for not playing basketball.Played for an hour or so...felt great but very sweaty..haha,after tat at bout 11...went to the hawker's to eat my breakfast...was hungry then...finished my plate of chicken rice then went home...wooossshhhh....my mum then asked me to follow her to the hospital for her follow-ups, diaoz had to sit there for 3 hours and nth to do...except to listen to the songs in my handphone...ahhh...it's just a bored bored day...

I found out tat i had nth much to talk to deardear these days....so bored and disappointed...want to talk to her more...i wish for tat and i hope it will happen...

BlaZe883
Luvs her
(:Talk to me more pls :)

EOY English paper 2 and Literature Paper

2007-10-04T05:10:00.001-07:00

Today,had English paper 2 and literature paper.I felt tat English was so easy...didn't take much time to finish it at all.Second paper was literature,also quite easy i wrote 1/3 of almost every page but other people like Donovan wrote like full page,u think wat compo ah haha...waste time sia lols.Anyways now left 2 paper Science and Math paper 2 .Hope everyone get good grades for the EOY's and enjoy after tat haha...ooo gtg liaos TATA

BlaZe883
Luvs Her

EOY chinese paper

2007-10-01T02:11:00.000-07:00

Today,woke up at 6 as usual...went to school with a nervy mood scared tat the paper would be very difficult.But luckily,it was quite simple.haha compo i wrote bout my parents which i think was my best compo ever.After the exams...went to IMM with deardear and Francis... yay finally got to go out with her.She so Ps when she see me kinda like blush...got to fetch me uncle from the airport afterwards and getting my new bag tat he bought for me from Shanghai.YAY told ma'am i wanted to go Hong Kong as well haha handed up the form but she said my passport must change photo if not cannot bring me through custom...ooo never mind after exam i go change...ok nth to say liao tata

BlaZe883
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Tomorrow is the EOY exams liao

2007-09-30T00:26:00.000-07:00

WOOO...stress scared i fail my Eoy exam.Cause lazy to study haha...still playing com not revising at all.Later then go revise,today was as usual,went for tuition,given a very difficult paper to do.then come back have lunch.(had frog porridge today haha) and then sitting in front of the com till now...nth to do anyways except to sms deardear and talk to her.Haizzz want to noe Sergeant results asap...cause my cousin's squad everyone failed the promo test.can't believe it at all.so many people but no one passed?haha absurd man!nth much to say liao.

BlaZe883
Luvs Her

New Background

2007-09-27T02:50:00.000-07:00

Changing my background trying a new one to see if nice.It turned out to be quite nice larhhs...hahas love it...just black and white.

BlaZe883

I am the Hierophant...

2007-09-26T02:51:00.001-07:00

You are The Hierophant

Divine Wisdom. Manifestation. Explanation. Teaching.

All things relating to education, patience, help from superiors.The Hierophant is often considered to be a Guardian Angel.

The Hierophant's purpose is to bring the spiritual down to Earth. Where the High Priestess between her two pillars deals with realms beyond this Earth, the Hierophant (or High Priest) deals with worldly problems. He is well suited to do this because he strives to create harmony and peace in the midst of a crisis. The Hierophant's only problem is that he can be stubborn and hidebound. At his best, he is wise and soothing, at his worst, he is an unbending traditionalist.

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Fragile Guy I Am

2007-09-22T01:52:00.000-07:00

Still can't get over her...crying over it until my tears has dried up.Although a guy should be strong, i am a very fragile guy,my heart have been teared into shreds twice.Tis time i'm going to take a longer time to heal my wounds.I never wanted to break at all but cannot force her.thanks for those have tried to cheer me up by humoring me but to no avail.Cannot seem to smile at all.

Today, went for the SEP. Kickboxing tat is. Actually didn't want to go at all.Not in the mood to do any kickboxing.BUT in the end i went for it.First,thank you Donovan,for ur care and concern when u saw me with a very sad face and during the whole programme. Learnt another few moves like the axe kick.Haizzz who cares anyway.Secondly to Syafiqah,thanks for consoling me as well u gave me a lot of support then THANKS

BlaZe883-Heartbroken

The Promotion Test

2007-09-12T17:14:00.000-07:00

Yesterday,i had my promotion test.Wo it was tough because we the five corporals(Me,Kristabel,Amani,Elna and Shahirah) were all nervous because when we had to shout the command all of us kinda either shout wrong command or do the wrong thing._______ Sir was there trying to stress us by asking us question we didn't have an answer,all of us wanted to die haha.BUT i hope all of us pass together to sergeant.May God Bless Us.

BlaZe883

13th August

2007-08-13T03:08:00.001-07:00

Sorry for not blogging for so many days...busy with something else..take this chance to update before my blog rots...today Monday got P.E..so sian have to run the stupid 2.4 again.I failed on the 1st run in JJC cause i walk on the 4th and 5th lap so fail timing was 16.34...2nd run was in school and failed again cause also walked too much...timing was worse 17.01...i think there were too many obstacles especially the uncle who is sweeping the floor...today i finally passed cause i run continuously...actually lazy to run again but have to run properly cause next week i will be 14 then have to run even more faster so today chiong ah...run until the end...have to now=)

BlaZe883

23th July

2007-07-23T19:54:00.000-07:00

Haizzz...sick now...cannot go sch oh i want to go shooting today but can't.Doc says stay at home and rest...Fever...i got two days mc for today and tomorrow bored at home...going to rot soon at home nobody at home anyway...haizz tat's all for today and jia you for those going for shooting

BlaZe883

15th July

2007-07-14T22:37:00.000-07:00

Wa Lao 2 days ago on Friday...so many people get angry with me for dun noe wat sia...oso not my fault.We went to watch Harry Potter after sch but not i organize one la.Is tat Wee Hong,his first time organizing an event.So very messy,all the people who want to watch not with us at Jurong Point buy tickets and then all oso dun hav how many there.Ask me to wait for them to come with money but i really cannot wait liao,the seats are going to be sold out if dun buy early.Then i oso dun hav money enough to buy for them the tickets,then everyone scold me for nth wat is this man.No one noes how many people going then no money ask me buy ticket...no money how to buy,ask me to wait until next show oso cannot everyone want to reach home before 6+7 how then like tat only hav to pang seh then get scolded.Fcuk man

BlaZe883

12th July

2007-07-12T04:47:00.000-07:00

Today,so disappointing first day our Sec 3 Nco's take over us and the Sec 2 squad did not respect them at all...some did some did not...those who did shouted like hell and the rest kept quiet...(most of the malay boys kept quiet and did nth much...except to talk and talk and talk...i feel for the Nco's i do not expect to have such a squad next year...although i am also in the Sec 2 squad i feel tat we are not doing enough...we had an attendance from 40++ i guess declining down to only 20++...i dun noe wat to say anymore abt my squad and i hope we can do better like when we first joined NPCC...anyway

SORRY NCO'S

BlaZe883

6th July

2007-07-06T01:02:00.000-07:00

Yesterday...got NPCC as usual on a Tuesday...but a little different because got P.O.P (passing on parade) haizzz so sad the sec 4's going away...haizzz only can remember them in our memories...I dun want them to go...will miss them...but took some photo's with some of them as a memory to remember them...and i got something special Nhawfal's boots wa so shiny man he also taught me how to polish and keep them well,will treasure it...

BlaZe883

3rd July

2007-07-03T03:59:00.000-07:00

...Back from ATC few days ago but busy no time to post...so tired man like hell in there...still considering whether to go next year or not...but lucky***i got a headache on the second day so can rest in the medic room...first night cannot even get to sleep at all in the canteen so noisy so next day headache...i think got fever...second night also cannot sleep much...in the tent hot like hell...(stop toking abt ATC )

Today went for ur .22 revolver dry shot...fun but got so many restrictions...so ma fun which means troublesome...only got six rounds,i would rather try a pistol got much more bullets or oso named pallets...

BlaZe883

26th June

2007-06-26T03:35:00.000-07:00

Today was the second day of school and i got back a report on my thinking,learning style and my personality

Perceptual Learning Style
Primary:Kinesthetic
Secondary:Visual
Cognitive Thinking Style
Intuitive Thinker
Personality Style
The "Doer"

After this course,went to my mother tongue class and found out tat we hav a new teacher Mr Yang everyone almost fell asleep when he teached us....it was
HELLAVA BORING

BlaZe883

24th June

2007-06-23T22:46:00.000-07:00

Same thing every Sunday...wake up late abt 10 then eat breakfast then prepare to go tuition at 11...as usual today nth much (another boring day)...u noe.After tuition went back and had western food that my father cooked...so delicious wow long time no eat...then i m here typing this crap here nth to say liao dots...

BlaZe883

20th June

2007-06-19T18:06:00.000-07:00

I had a very unlucky day yesterday...all because of chinese chess(I will give up on it).Yesterday after ATC meeting (NPCC) went to play chess play until 6 plus and then play one more round.My mother callled and said if ny 7.10 i dun reach home she would lock the door and not let me in.I dashed all the way from the table back home suddenly in the carpark i was running when someone open the car door,i rammed into the door then the owner ask me for my name,ic and contact no. if got any damages i have to pay......i am too addicted to chess already.This is a lesson learnt and i will NEVER FORGET IT!...wat more is i had a concussion after the knock injuries here and there

BlaZe883

14th June

2007-06-13T18:42:00.000-07:00

Another day with nth to do in the morning...except roam in the internet...anyway later going to play bowling at the West Coast Recreational Centre...with my cousins...err not much competition except my mom...she oso playin she was a pro as she played bowling for years when my father's company treat them to bowl last time when she was younger...(i did not mean tat she is old liao)...better got preparing to go out now,later...

BlaZe883

8th June

2007-06-08T09:18:00.000-07:00

Today was really a very boring day...i had nth to do all day...only to play com until Afternoon then decided to go play chess for leisure...I found an easy opponent and played with him for many rounds...he always lost to me...haha and his nickname there is "Bangalah Kia"...lols there are also many similar nickname there...eg "Bangalah""Bangalah Kam" and "Bangalah Sun"...dun noe y there are so many funny funny nick haha...dots nth to write liao end here...

BlaZe883

6th June

2007-06-06T04:03:00.000-07:00

Today, i had to go tuition cos i had skipped tuition on last Sunday b'cos of the Police Day Parade.Then after tat i went to Jurong Entertainment with my cousin as he had to be there for the X-box 360 competition.I asked him to take part in it and he tried but still ended up having average results although he tried his best.There arer some opponents who are very weak but they joined for fun .I almost laughed at their skills b'cos they drove the car like shit.Oh forgot to tell u,there are 3 catergories (Racing,Fighting and Sports).My cousin took part in Racing which is Burnout Revenge and Need For Speed Carbon.......dun noe wat to write liaoz...end here...

BlaZe883

3rd June

2007-06-03T07:19:00.000-07:00

Waaa...tis few days soo busy tat oso no time to post in my blog...yesterdayi was so happy...fancy drill was a sucess...ur efforts was recognised when i heard all the applause...before we even started we were like nervous like wat sia...even Imran oso stomach pain...then ur IC of the team,Nhawfal was oso very stressed and nervous,he was like telling ur mistakes over and over again,(like gam jia jui...which like sugar cane).

Then today had to go to the indoor stadium for the police day parade...mdm sent 5 of us there...Me,Amani,Elna,Nicholas and Zaki.There were many cadets there many many different ranks.Cadets,Lance Corp,Corp,Sergent,Staff and even SI.It was tiring to seat there in the stadium for nearly 4 hours.I felt the parade was boring and i almost slept there...tired liao ...tat's all for now...

BlaZe883

30th May

2007-05-30T02:58:00.000-07:00

Soooooooo tired...today we had to go kayaking again but we had a few squad mates missing from the squad yesterday.Today,we were tested on the skills we learnt yesterday and some new skills we learn today.I was so scared i'll fail b'cos my classic side draw wasn't very good but luckily i passed,not only me all of us passed.We oso learnt the 'TX' rescue.We had to do it in groups in 3's.(1 victim,1 main rescuer and an assistant rescuer.)The victim had to do the capsize drill and the 2 have to save him or her.Many of my friends got sunburnt, me too...got two colour tones on my arm...

BlaZe883

29th May

2007-05-29T03:44:00.001-07:00

...err this is my 1st post in my new blog...bla bla bla...

ok...today i went to sch early in the morning for a trip to Kallang Water Sports centre for kayaking with the whole of NPCC (only sec 2).But only bout 22 of us went when we hav bout 30-40 cadets...!No choice,ur squad very slack 1...only some dedicated to NP...

Anyway...we realli had a great time...i learnt how to kayak.only front and side and turn.but not back.My team was lucky b'cos we had a very good intructor,didn't scold like the other group's intructor did...haizzz although fun but very tiring...all almost slept when reach sch when going to dismiss.tat's all end here lo...

BlaZe883